Today was lots of ups and downs. I started DBT and have many mixed feelings about that. I felt happy, sad, angry at myself, satisfied, troubled, worried and list can go on for a bit. Then on top of that I spotting a friend of mine flirting with someone other than her boyfriend. I felt hurt for a moment then wondered why she would do something like that. It's totally out of her normal element. When I called her out on it she tried to deny it. But I'm not stupid. When I told her I wasn't mad I was concerned she loosened up the reins and told me that she and her boyfriend are having a really hard time and she didn't know what to do. In that moment I went back to my DBT class and remembered EMOTIONAL MIND, RATIONAL MIND and WISE MIND. My RATIONAL MIND wanted to fix the problem. Sit them down and have a conversation about what was going on. My EMOTIONAL MIND wanted to hold her and cry with her. My WISE MIND however took over and I listened to her issues, gave my opinion and let her decide what to do. This isn't my life it's hers.
This guy. What can I do I say about this wonderful man. I start by saying...Happy birthday, son. I can't express how blessed I am to have been chosen to be your mother. What a honor it is for me to raise such a fine human being. Thank you. I marvel at all you do and everything you have accomplished in the 22 years you've been.on this planet. School. Work. Friends. Family. You would take your own shirt off your back to help your fellow brother. I admire you for that. Your work ethic puts others to shame. Showing everyone that Autism isn't going to stand in your way. I stand all amazed by you. My hero. My love. My Son. Have the happiest of birthday my sweet boy. Forever and beyond ❤
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