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Loyalty or Exile

When do you cut someone toxic out of your life? When they attack someone you don't know? When they attack an acquaintance? When they attack a friend? When they attack family? When they attack you? When does loyalty go out the window and you walk away?

This has been the drama my family is dealing with as of late. Sadly and more importantly children are being adversely affected by it. These children are being told viscous lies to protect someone doesn't want the turth to break the surface. Lies upon lies upon lie. Decades of them. Finally coming to a head, ready to blow and she is getting scared. 

Through this heartbreak my adult children have lost life-long friendships. My daughter and grandson lots their God-daughter/God-sister. Family has all but disowned family. Why? Because of lies. Lies that should have never been said in the first place. You see, little white lies seem harmful. One here. One there. No biggie, right? Nope. It will ALWAYS come out. In some form or another. 

Toxicity can happen to the most unlikliest person. Someone whom you have love your whole life suddenly isn't the same. They change. Sometimes for the good and sometimes for the bad. You also change, for the good or the bad. You have to decide who you want in your inner circle/family. Leaving toxicity can and will lead to healing of the mind, soul and body. Everything will seem different and new. A re-birth, is you will.

Now, all I can do is sit back and watch from afar. To sit quietly. Staying strong for the ones I hold dearest to my heart. I will be here for a shoulder to cry on. I will be a mother to ask advice and vent to. A grandmother for those who need a good hug and a hot meal. An Auntie to discuss the deep and vast universe and things nobody else wants to talk about. A friend to laugh and pal around with. I'm always going to be here. All I can do is sit here an wait from afar. They'll find me. They know where I am.

Blessed Be 💕

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