I'm Living Bipolar 2

Could I have MS (multiple sclerosis) or is it Fibromyalgia (Fibro)? For the last 4 years I have believed that I have text-book fibro with widespread pain, numbness, fatigue and memory loss. However, the more I read and look into what my full spectrum of symptoms are, it looks more like MS! This week was the final nail in the coffin, so to speak. I agreed to help my cousin, whom had fallen down the stairs recently, and assist her in packing up her 2 story 4 bdrm home and get it all ready for the movers on that following Tuesday. That night my legs went numb, tingled for hours and felt like an elephant was laying across my thighs. I texted her I couldn't make it and how sorry I truly was. I just couldn't walk up and down stairs with boxes and such. I would be and feel useless. So I've been taking it easy and doing as little walking as possible. I went with Babbit on a couple deliveries but couldn't do much. I was there to be his company and navigator. That was all I could...

I've been doing some personal soul searching. I've realized, I few true friends. I essentially have one girlfriend whom I call my best friend. We've know each other since grade school. I see/talk/text her very rarely. BUT, I know that it's a true friendship. She answers my calls/text immediately. We make time for each other. We laugh, cry and push the other to be better. All in positive ways. Other than her I have no one. Of course we have known the other since we were 11, but I digress. I want a bestie everyday. Not when it's convient for her. When I was in my Twenties I had a best friend. Someone I could talk to on a regular. In fact we did that a LOT! Talked. All the time. I would stagger over to her house (we were neighbors at one point) to have a cup of coffee. We would talk for hours and chain smoke packs of cigarettes. It was the best time. By the time we were in our Thirties we got into a very large fight and haven't talked since. That's been 10 year...