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Black and White

When you have borderline personality disorder it's easy to get lost in the black and white thinking if things. You forget about the grey parts. You forget that there is always more to the story then what is to be expected. Maybe something is going on on the other side. Maybe this thing is more important and need 100% attention. I have to learn to move forward. Forget about the past and think about the future. That's what I need to do. Think about the future. My goals. My dreams. What I want. Not what someone else thinks I should do. Shit I'm my own person I should be able to do whatever the fuck I want. I want my own money to these things I want to do. I want the universe to hear my calls and answer them fully. No more black and white. I want color in my life. I want to see greens and blues and reds. I want to feel the colors. I want.....
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