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3-7-14

I have no idea who the fuck I am. I really have no idea. Who am I? I like the outdoors but hate leaving my house. I love art but scared to go to a musium. I feel myself changing. In so many ways. Damn it! What am I going to do? Late 30's and I feel like a someone who is just starting her life. I wanna go dancig. I wanna go to a ballet. I wanna be rich. I wanna have everything I ever wanted. I want to walk in to a store and say I take that and buy what ever I want. I want to drive a fabulous car with enough room for everyone. I want a healthy marriage. I want a miraculous sex life. I want a house so big that I hear an echo. I want jewelry everywhere. I want so many clothes that makes people scream with delight. I want a different handbag for everyday of the year. I want to be the bell of the ball. I want to be so happy that my happiness makes others happy. I want to be healthy and full of life and vigor. I want to be loved and adored by everyone. I want to ooze respect when I walk into a room. I want people to look at me as a role model and someone to emulate. 

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