I just stared at myself for a good 15 minutes practically naked and I hate my body. I've gained so much weight with my middle daughters pregnancy that it scares me. My oldest daughter gained almost 70 pounds with her pregnancy and I gained weight right along with her. My fear is I'm gaining just as much weight with my second grandchild. She's due within the next month and I can't wait just so I'll stop eating. I can't even look at myself without being disgusted and repulsed at my body, it's a terrible terrible feeling and I wish it on nobody. I wish I could feel pretty and thin and like a woman. That's it, at the beginning of 2016 I'm going on a freaking diet. I will restart Yoga, I will continue with meditation and I will be at my ideal weight by this time next year which is 130 pounds. I will do this at home as to the fact that I don't like to go out in public very much looking the way that I look. It's a personal thing and I just don't want to go out in public. Maybe yoga and meditation will help center me and being a better more intelligent, spiritual, resilience and beautiful inside and out.
This guy. What can I do I say about this wonderful man. I start by saying...Happy birthday, son. I can't express how blessed I am to have been chosen to be your mother. What a honor it is for me to raise such a fine human being. Thank you. I marvel at all you do and everything you have accomplished in the 22 years you've been.on this planet. School. Work. Friends. Family. You would take your own shirt off your back to help your fellow brother. I admire you for that. Your work ethic puts others to shame. Showing everyone that Autism isn't going to stand in your way. I stand all amazed by you. My hero. My love. My Son. Have the happiest of birthday my sweet boy. Forever and beyond ❤
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