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I saw my father....

My husband and I were on the way to his mothers when we decided to turn around and just go home due to the weather. I forgot to buy some milk on Saturday so we went to the Speedway down the street on the way home. I looked up and saw a man with Utah in big letters on a hoodie. And the man who was wearing it was my father. I couldn't get out of the car fast enough. First forgot to grab the keys. Then forgot the phone on the dash. Then a man was taking forever to get into his car and I couldn't open my door. Then my husband was walking out and all I could say was "I just saw my Dad!!". All I heard was Honey? No you didn't. Trust me I said. I walked with the speed that felt like a snail. My legs felt like they were in tar. I slowly walked up to this man and said "Uncle Jeff?". My uncle who by the way is almost identical to my father, was standing in front of me. All I could do was hug him. When he put his arms around me it was like my father was hugging me. I felt his arms holding me. I still feel them. I didn't want to let go. We said some pleasantries and went our separate ways, but hell I almost lost it right there in the store. As soon as I stepped into the car. however is a different story. My amazing husband drove home with me sobbing in the passenger seat. It was strange. To see someone look so much like my father. It brought up so many feelings. I just couldn't hold it in. I miss my father dearly. But I'm happy I got to see him...sort of. It couldn't have come at a better time too. I needed my father. I need him now. There is so much I want to tell him. So many things.

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