I'm Living Bipolar 2

https://youtu.be/I7BkKqciZO4

I've been sick. I'm not talking about a little cold. I'm saying a full blown flu like bullshit. Hot and cold flashes. Sore aches and pains. Uncontrollable shaking. Vomiting and profusely sweating. Did I mention that I've had fibromyalgia flare-up for last couple weeks. Also the migraines are unbelievable. Pain is second nature now. I don't know what life it like with no pain. To be able to walk without pain. To move without stiffness. What is that? It's life, that's what it is.

Fuck life

Easter is just around the corner. I should be full of love and respect for our Lord Jesus Christ for all the sacrifices he made for us. Here's the thing, I have a LOT of empathy and feel emotions and sometimes pain of other. This includes watching videos and dvds. I read about Christ and the love he has for us. The fact that he died for our sins and then was resurrected so we can live with out Heavenly Father again is amazing and breathtaking. I observe in my own way. I read my scriptures and say my prayers. I even been studying my Jewish heritage and reading on Passover. Recalling memories of Sader with my Uncle. How much love was in that room. So much love. So much life. Today we make our ham dinner and remember love lost and life renewed. I remember the sacrifices my family and the Lord Savior made for me to he here today. And to return and be with family I've lost. Happy Easter. Happy Passover.

https://youtu.be/9Ftu8Z6pMu4